2026: Feeling Lost

  We're 18 days into the new year and I remain stuck. So what has been going on since I last wrote ? Let's see. Went to bingo on Wednesday January 14 only to find out a few minutes after we arrived that it had been cancelled ! Michelle & Mike came as did Rich & Barb .. what are the odds that the whole crew shows up and it gets cancelled ! DJ was sick and no one was available to cover. We ended up going to the new restaurant in the casino. We had a delicious dinner and afterwards we sat by the fire. Rich & Barb didn't stay long as Barb is still working (until 2-28!) and Michelle and Joe played the slots. Kim and I hung out at the fire with Mike until just after 9 and then we all headed home. Fortunately the weather was good for my drive ! The only other highlight is I finally got my hair colored yesterday. Michelle was doing Kim's and she offered to do mine too. It feels really good to have all the gray gone ! The pop up salon was at Kim's house and I sto...

  ** written January 4 ** We're 4 days into the new year and it feels different. I no longer feel the sense of hopelessness that has dogged me since I was notified I was losing my job. May 10, 2024 upended my life after 39 years ! I'm grateful for the 39 years I got as it was 5 years longer than many others got. It was long enough for me to pay off all debt except my mortgage & car so I walked into unemployment knowing I would be able to pay my bills for a time, since I received 6 months severance followed by 26 weeks of unemployment. My inheritance from Mom is keeping me afloat now and when the times comes I will add Social Security, my pension and my IRA into the mix. I still have $48k in my savings and I'm hopeful that will last into 2027. We'll see ! It wasn't supposed to snow today but it's been lightly snowing pretty much all day. It's 4 pm now and though I didn't go to Walmart I did take a shower and changed the sheets on my bed. I also did 2 ...

  Here we are. The start of another year. It's hard not to believe it will be yet another year of failure. Here's the thing: it's up to me and I haven't made good decisions the past few years. I gained back every pound that I lost and I'm right back to hating the way I look and feel. Tomorrow is January 4 and I started my very first weight loss journey on January 4, 2019. Six years ago I embarked on Nutrisystem and exercise and lost 150 pounds. Tomorrow the plan is to gently ease back into that mindset. Why gently ? Well, I have a lot of "bad" food in the house and nowhere near enough "good", so I'm not 100% ready. That being said, my treadmill is ready, willing and able ! Am I ? Only one way to find out. My new year thus far has been spent on the couch watching it snow ! Friday we had some light snow but overnight about 2 feet fell ! We had snow showers on and off yesterday as well. I spent the day watching storm chaser Connor Croff on Youtu...